Voting Question: Should I join the Marines?, or am I thinking irrationally?
Long Term Care - - Posted on March, 9 at 1:03 am
I’m a fairly peaceful person, but I have very low confidence, I have very low self esteem, and I’m certainly not tough, and I really want to change that.I want to go somewhere where I have to get tough and die, I think the marines will help me, I don’t want to live any more if I have to live like this, I’m a coward and a weakling, and I hate it, I want the Marines to kick my ***, into the confident, tough, assertive person, I don’t want to be a macho as$hole who fights al the time when I get out, but I don’t want to be the person people can walk all over, I don’t want to back down from threats, I want women to like me, I have no qualities that would make a woman like me for long term, but if I’m confident strong, physically and mentally, and have done something like completed Marine advanced training, I think I could have better relationships, I see it as some kind of passage into manhood, and I know this all sound lame as $hit, but its the truth.My therapist is ******* crap, I can’t trust that guy, I hate therapy, I don’t like sitting there talking about it, I want to have the Marine technique, of breaking me down, then re building me into a Marine, I think that will stabilize my mind.If I have to go to war, I don’t care about death any more, all I would care about is working with my squad and do my best and work in a team to keep them alive and complete what ever we had to do, and its not like the war at the moment is chaos, more people die of bee stings every year.I talked to my therapist about this and he says depression doesn’t keep people out of the Marines, in fact, he says that he writes references to the military about his clients.Is this a good reason to join?, don’t get me wrong, I don’t think it will be easy at all, I know it will be the hardest thing I will ever do in my life, but I have been going to the gym, I can already run long and fast, but I just need to improve my strength, and stamina, I plan on joining 2011, I will take any pain it causes me, I will do it even if it kills me, I don’t care any more.Or is this all just me being ****** up after years of abuse?I’m not a marine yet, but I do know what a “Jody” is!Anyway, thanks for reading.
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